I know it’s only the end of July, but I’ve been thinking a lot of Theo’s first birthday.
I would really like to do a party of some kind.
Probably a fundraiser party. I don’t know what specific cause yet. I keep bouncing between local causes (local elementary school or children’s hospital) or larger causes (American Lung Association or World Wildlife Fund). Maybe I could do a local and global cause, and just split the money between the two?
The idea of having a big party for Theo means a lot, as I know we would have had a birthday party for him if he had lived. And I want his memory to make the world a better place, hence the fundraiser.
My biggest hesitancy is I don’t know how I’m going to feel in 4 months and some change. And even if I’m in a different place in my grief, will I be up for having a party on/near Theo’s first birthday? Will I want to see people? I trust the people we would invite to be understanding of how I’m feeling, so I’m not worried about that.
Kenny is pretty neutral on this right now, but I know if I really want to do one he will go a long with it.
Anyone do a party (fundraiser or not) for the child you lost? What are your thoughts, and are you glad you did it? If you were thinking of having a party, and decided against it, what made you decide not to?